Dear
Tawjihi,
This one is
for you,,
It's more
than just a word that defines the misery of a seventeen year old trying to
figure out what life is all about and how difficult it is to make decisions
that will change the course of your future FOREVER!
It's more
than a word your mom throws at you like the Veto card whenever you claim your
God- given right to have fun ,use your mobile, watch Turkish soap operas,
breath, eat, sleep, laugh, feed the hamster, wash your dads car that you never
washed before but now you suddenly have a strong desire to do so just to escape
the encounter with that hideous book of "Thaqafeh 3ameh ".
It's more
than the countless tasteless press conferences you will unwillingly watch on
national T.V " which by the way you never watched before" just to see
what his Excellency, the one and only, the all-star, the man of the show,, Mr.Thnebat
might say about the results.
It's more
than the nightmare you all feared but turned out to be a reality now,,
Tawjihi is
more than just a phase,,
It's the 180
days you will spend with people like you who have same dreams of success and
happiness,,
It's the
time of your life when you know true friends and fake ones, you know who was
there for you and who just didn't bother at all,,
It's the
zillion selfies you will take with those closest to your heart,,,
It's you
teaching your mom ( unintentionally) how to pray for you,,,how to ask God viciously
and whole heartedly in the depths of cold nights to grant her precious baby a
happiness that would fill her heart with grace,,,
It's your
dad at your graduation holding his tears back,, his heart racing and in the
back of his mind it's the image of you in his hands when you were first born,,
It's,, your
pillow baring witness of all your tears that you shed silently in moments of despair,,
when you thought you were all alone in this and never knew that people who love
you are sparing moments of their days to keep you in their prayers.
It's you running
out of options and knowing that the only way out of this is to go deep, to live
the moment by its highs and lows,,
It's when
you finally know that you have grown into a whole new person, ,just one year
and it teaches you so much all at once,,
That no
matter what happens, you are worth more than the score you get,,
You make "Tawjihi"
because simply,,,,"Tawjihi" does not make you.
You are all in my prayers
love you,
T.Binoz
7,Sep,2014
